I normally don’t blog here about the downsides of mylife. The chaos. The crazy. The exhaustion. But today I need to let it out!
I’m tired.
5 kids are exhausting!
Homeschooling 4 of them can be stressful. 4 different levels for all the subjects to teach and grade. Pre-Algebra makes me want to pull my hair out most days.
Have a toddler who speaks in screams is enough to do us all in. He loves to hear his voice and he loves to be VERY loud.
My husband works long hours and although I’m very proud of him and what he does, it makes it hard to be the one to get the kids up and put them to bed and do the daily stuff.
Adding a play and play practice for 2 of the kids on top of other extracurricular things makes my head spin.
I make a meal plan each week. Normally things go according to plan. This week, not so much. This week, my kids have had peanut butter sandwiches for dinner 2 days in a row now.
Our bed sheets all need washing.
The bathrooms are a disaster.
“Mount Washmore” is reaching new heights.
I may or may not have showered this week.
I’m trying to eat healthy but the chaos jumps in the middle of that and sometimes convenience has to win.
I’ve yelled.
I’ve moved toys to the new house because I was tired of the kids fighting over them. I have a beautiful new house that we can’t move in yet because lots still needs to be done. It’s a little overwhelming and time consuming.
I haven’t kept up with my reading and quiet time.
I’ve thought about stopping this blog. I just don’t have the time anymore and have a hard time paying to keep the blog running. I’ve poured 7 years into this blog and I think I’m running out of steam. Plus I wonder if anyone is even reading.
I’m grumpy and tired.
Through the midst of this, I know that God is still giving me new mercies each day. New grace. New breath and a fresh new start.
I do enjoy sharing a bit of our life with you guys. I love sharing the new recipes. I love sharing our homeschool adventures. I love writing when I have time.
Tomorrow is a new day, and with that I can rest.
Psalm 62:5-8: For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from him. He only is my rock and my salvation, my fortress; I shall not be shaken. On God rests my salvation and my glory; my mighty rock, my refuge is God. Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him; God is a refuge for us.